Starving worked...
I was doing a search for large paper shopping bags in bulk for my (personal) business, and hilariously the video of Fiona Apple's "Paper Bag"came up in the results. I had never seen the video. Yet the words I know in my sleep. I don't have speakers on my work computer so I added the rough, crooned audio to Fiona's moving lips. So then this turned into a "session". I did the same improvised dubbing with "First Taste" and was about to do it with "Limp" but then I soon discovered I was getting the remembered lyrics to "Fast as You Can" confused and soon grew lost not knowing which song was what and how either properly went. I couldn't reorient myself by reading her lips because the video was of that sort of languid poses, and forelorn looks in mirrors, and stolen looks to someone possibly imagined off camera. So there were no lips to read just assumed sighs between open, pouty lips and hair... a lot of hair. Not talking about hair in volume but in various shapes and forms and utility. Draped over the face haphazardly. Tight bun high on the head with gentle little tendrils escaping to flirt with the face. Shaken and thrown in wild abandon due to whatever grand emotion that particular stanza and the director du vid dictated. I could be imagining all of this hair porn and remembering the video wrong because frankly I turned it off 15 seconds into it once I got my lyrics lost and so my interests in my personal karaoke moment ended. I closed the window as she poined her face close to the bathroom mirror, putting on red, red lipstick on her lips resulting in an open, pouty mouth. So I am positive I got the pouty and the mirror parts right but none of this is by any means related to my original intention which was to google for where I could buy paper bags. Which goes to show just how quickly one can be wildly distracted by the Internet. *snap!* Just like that.
And, again, completely unrelated to everything, I just want to add that it's damned near impossible to find a paper shopping bag large enough to easily fit the cupcake boxes in (these boxes fit 12 cupcakes just so you know). I even called the major paper suppliers and nothing. So this is frustrating. And the only bags I've seen that are perfect for my needs are the bags from Crumbs. But that's ridiculous. Can you imagine me using a bag with CRUMBS all colorful and loud all over it to drop off my cupcakes? Okay, I have to admit the mental image is making me chuckle... BUT STILL.
.end scene.
And I went crazy again today, looking for a strand to climb
Looking for a little hope
Baby said he couldn't stay, wouldn't put his lips to mine,
And a fail to kiss is a fail to cope
And I said, "Honey, I don't feel so good, don't feel justified
Come on put a little love here in my void"
He said, "It's all in your head"
And I said, "So's everything'" but he didn't get it
I thought he was a man but he was just a little boy
Hunger hurts, and I wanted him so bad, oh it killed
But I know I'm a mess he don't wanna clean up
I got to fold 'cause these hands are too shaky to hold
Hunger hurts, but starving works, when it costs too much to love
